“How do I write a bio without making my private life public.” This website wasn’t meant to do that anyway, it’s here as a catch-all for everything that goes through this thing I call my brain. There are times when I just want to sit back and write, for no one in particular, sometimes a thought passes me by, sometimes I get this picture in my mind but there’s not way to capture it. I guess with a website of my own I get the chance to do all this and at the same time share my ideas with anyone who’s interested. I’m not after praise and adulation…I know I can’t please everyone, but in doing this, I hope that something in here might touch someone, and might lead to something great someday. I guess it just shows you that the world is real, that life isn’t and never has been perfect, and though dreamers like me can bask in surreal pictures of what life should be, that place doesn’t exist or ever will in this lifetime. There are other things that preoccupy me, my music, my books, my computer and everything that attaches itself to that particular technology. Recently I realized that I was a control freak; that I always wanted to have a sense of balance. Not really immediate balance, but at least an impression that things are going normally. I don’t like sudden disruptions to the schedule…so even if I’m off to a vacation, I really need to make sure that everything is fine before I leave. Unexpected twists can really knock me off normalcy. That’s why I try to maintain a good relationship with the Allah. It is through Him that I find that balance in my life. Growing up in the mission field got me started well, but did work some disadvantages…thinking that I knew Him well enough sometimes gave me no reason to know Him more. I’ve learned my lesson over and over again, I understand today that time spent with Him each day not only makes me whole, it keeps me sane. Lastly I consider myself a philosopher or perhaps a thinker. I sometimes talk to myself, ask myself questions, and think about answers. I once asked myself what drives me, and realized that it was doing the things that I loved, the things that give me fulfillment and satisfaction, the things that make me happy. My happiness is derived from the REAL things in life, a loving family, good friends, and a great Allah. With all this to drive me, life is worth is worth living.

S.M.Ali Inam Habeeb